Have you ever been going about your day just skipping along taking care of one thing or another and then all of a sudden feel the pressure change in your ears? It’s a peculiar feeling where there’s a sensation of pressure build up and then all of a sudden there’s a release and everything sounds hollow for a few seconds. I’ve always wondered what causes that and if anyone else felt it too. Maybe it’s the barometric pressure doing something hinky…I don’t know. Something like that is occurring in my life right now. I feel a gradual building up, to what, I’m not sure. I have a sense that when I finally reach that peak, that release…it is going to be a fantastic and scary and fabulous change in my life. I’m getting goosebumps just thinking about it!
So many things are happening that seem to be a prelude to a shift in my reality. I came to the realization, probably a little late in life, that I create the world I live in through daily acts which are like drops of water filling a container one at a time. The container is this body I live in and the acts either add to or take away from the persona that is being created. There is a growing consciousness in me that this “golden” stage of my life will be exactly what I make of it. Thinking about the approach of the new decade, I am excited and energized for what may come. I look forward to the endings of the old things and the beginnings of the new!
One of the things I’ve noticed this year that is different is the absence of the seasonal depression that I have suffered through for the past twenty years. I have to wonder if it has something to do with the new, little joyful spirit who has joined our family. We lost Muffin back in April and Jasper and I tooled around on our own until Labor Day. Then we were blessed with Kady. She has brightened our lives and lifted our spirits!
As I come to the close of this year and this decade, I give myself over completely to the season and my upcoming trip to spend the holidays with my family. I love this time when I can escape from work and spend time baking goodies and getting gifts ready for all the pieces of my heart who live in Virginia. I can’t wait to get there!!